[BNP/E3, 49A2 – 16]
21/4/09.
A Rationalist’s Evil Moment
How black is life sense faith
Facing the[1] void Unknown!
And I have |*suffer| and shall from death
Alone.
Alone
Nothing before but Mystery
And mystery[2] behind.
Nor thoughts of peace or love
Shall call me or shall drive
But a dark void where all is misery
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Oh not to call on God
Not to be[3] thoughts to pray
To know not what path must be trod
Whether to, whence way.
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What matter mother[4], wife
If I have thee or none?
If I am more alone[5] in life,
Than solitude is lone!
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|A darkness of the universe around me
Without {…} or thoughts or[6] star|
[1] the /a\
[2] mystery /suffering\
[3] be /have\
[4] mother /sister\
[5] more alone /concealed for\
[6] thoughts or /hope of a\