[BNP/E3, 49A2 – 16]

21/4/09.

A Rationalist’s Evil Moment

     How black is life sense faith

     Facing the[1] void Unknown!

And I have |*suffer| and shall from death

     Alone.

     Alone

Nothing before but Mystery

     And mystery[2] behind.

     Nor thoughts of peace or love

     Shall call me or shall drive

But a dark void where all is misery

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     Oh not to call on God

     Not to be[3] thoughts to pray

To know not what path must be trod

     Whether to, whence way.

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What matter mother[4], wife

     If I have thee or none?

If I am more alone[5] in life,

     Than solitude is lone!

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|A darkness of the universe around me

     Without {…} or thoughts or[6] star|

 
[1] the /a\
[2] mystery /suffering\
[3] be /have\
[4] mother /sister\
[5] more alone /concealed for\
[6] thoughts or /hope of a\