[BNP/E3, 49A2 – 24]

12-12-08

If thou didst know how much thou madest me suffer

Hou joyful, child and proud wouldst thou be!

Bu my own wounded pride I will not offer

By making known, as sacrifice to thee.

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Time has not taught me to feel less, but more.

But left me proud, killing what I’d of {…}

I shall not show thee

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Thou shalt not read this {…} of my {…}

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In spite of all, however – I cannot

Conquer with pride the scorn of thy disdain

The scorn that I am just of {…} and thought

Make me fell more contempt’s and {…} gain.

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[24v]

I would I could forget thee or forgive,

Conquer my pride or make it conquer all

{…}